“There. I said it.” As many of you may have recognized, I completely stole this title from a Miss Mustard Seed post written back in early October, but it struck such a cord with me that I’d like to ruminate on it just a bit more.

I think for so many of us, putting ourselves out there in any form can be an enormously daunting prospect. The possibility of embarrassment, of failure, and the ensuing disappointment and heartache…it’s just too much. So instead, we keep our feet solidly on the ground, silent in our pie-in-the-sky dreams, but secretly hoping – if we dare – that one day, perhaps that pie will drop right out of the sky and fall directly into our very ready laps.

Unfortunately for most of us, that’s simply not how life works. To transform dream into reality takes effort, a tremendous amount of trial and error and, I think most importantly, the ability to fall and land softly. What determines success is what you do after the fall – do you pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and move on with timid grin? Or do you loll about, dejected and spent from something you’ve really only just begun?

For me, starting this blog was a huge step forward. But every. single. day. the thought of putting myself out there makes my heart lurch. I’ve spent sleepless nights wondering what people are thinking about me. Are they laughing? Do they think I’m nothing more than a joke? A failure? Or perhaps they’re not thinking anything at all because no one is even reading this itty bitty blog in this big, bad Blogdom.

I need to consistently remind myself that it doesn’t really matter. What does matter is that I have taken that step forward, I have put myself out there, and I have found the courage to dream out loud…

…but with all this said, even I have fallen, and I don’t always land softly. In fact, I’m only just beginning to pick myself back up after a recent hard fall, which is exactly why I felt so inspired to write this post.

there's so much to smile about

I love decorating, I love styling my home and offering inspiration to others; I love antiquing and “picking” and realizing the potential in dilapidated furniture pieces; I love transforming these pieces into something unique and beautiful, and I love having the opportunity to find them a new home.

I have a dream to one day own a studio and showroom space, a little piece of creative heaven, but in the meantime, I have very little storage and work space to build on this endeavor. So while I wait (and wait and wait…) on an appropriately priced opportunity, I find myself losing a little bit of faith. Frankly, my work has stalled and my drive is failing me.

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I need to remember to believe in myself; “pushing through the self-doubt, the fears and anxieties, and the nay-sayers” (per Miss Mustard Seed). And, as she also so wisely advised, I need to put it out there in writing.

So, as much for myself as for all those silent dreamers out there, this is my dream:

I want to find a healthy balance between my love for home styling, furniture refinishing, and events planning, and have a conglomerate of these things within my small business. I want to have my own studio space in which I can showcase my services: provide styling ideas, tablescapes, and vintage and refinished products all available for purchase. I want to be able to articulate my dreams fully, because so often they become lost amidst so many other ideas and aspirations, and I want to create a clear and concise business plan that I can pursue without hesitation

I have no doubt that it will take time, a huge amount of work, and I’m certain that I will fall more than a few times, but I have every intention of getting back up each and every time. All I ask of myself is a little patience and a lot of strength, and all I can ask you, my dear readers, is for an encouraging and supportive community!

Oprah Winfrey quote by Marloes de Vries

There. I said it. And I hope you have the courage to say it too. So tell me, what’s your dream?

15 thoughts on “HAPPY HUMP DAY! THERE. I SAID IT.

  1. Wow! What a wonderful, sharing post. I’m not sure where exactly I’m going, so right now I’m just enjoying the ability to pick it up or put it down as it suites me and my family… Having said that I DO believe that having a clear goal in mind is super helpful 😉 I also believe that when you are uninspired it’s time to take a break, enjoy the scenery, go shopping, get a massage, read a book or whatever…. You will be able to come back recharged and ready rock! Good luck and I love following you along on your adventure 😉

  2. hi Kristen! I think our styles are very similar, hence my name City Farmhouse:). And I LOVE your kitchen, I think sometimes when you live with something for a while you stop seeing all the pretty little details, guilty of it too! I was you not too long along and what helped me was a few things, I had to stop looking at blogs for a bit and refocus on me & what I LIKED and I had to figure out the true purpose of my blog, which helped me to stay focused(otherwise it was hard to narrow down what I wanted to write about.) For me I choose to be a sharing & teaching blog of ALL the things I was doing and experimenting with in my own home. It helped SO much to have a purpose. Oh and this is a big one, start linking up to link parties , that was huge for me & I made so many friends.

    • Jen, thank you so much for the comment! I fully agree. There are so many kick ass blogs out there (yours included!) and it’s easy to get intimidated and lose your sense of self amidst them all. I definitely need to take a breather from some of these blogs, stop comparing, and focus on myself and my likes. Great advice!

  3. so many things you said resonate with me. my greatest hurdle at this point is i have an idea of where i want to head but since i stay at home with my 2 little ones i lack the time to carry it out. i want to enjoy this time with my kids (because i know it will go quick) but i also NEED my goals and dreams for myself and it has been tough moving soooo slow towards them since time doesn’t allow me to work quickly on anything. i hope you’ll stick with it and hopefully we can all remember life isn’t a race and it may take a while to get where we want to go. easier said than done!

  4. Oh, Kristen – I love that you put into words the vision you have for yourself. Asking for exactly what you want, and then remaining open to receiving it are so very important. I also agree with the comments above regarding the comparison to all the other amazing blogs/great style/accomplishments out there. I started my blog just this week, after tossing the idea around in my head for over a year, because of comparison and self-judgement. Yuck! Who needs that?!
    Your blog is absolutely lovely, and I have no doubt your dreams are making their way towards you. big hug to you, -Katie
    p.s. I found you through Truth and Cake, just like Allan! 🙂

    • Katie, thank you so much for the sweet comment! I know that starting a blog can be a scary and intimidating thing – you’re putting yourself out there for the world to see! But you’ll quickly find that the blogging community is incredibly supportive and encouraging. Rather than comparing yourself to other blogs out there, you can simply have “role models” to look up to and reach out to (it’s all about perspective!). Most are more than willing to help 🙂 I think your blog is off to an excellent start and I look forward to reading more! -Kristen

  5. I once read somewhere that you should write your vision and make it plain. You’ve taken that step, which in my opinion can be the most daunting step to make. You are half-way there! You have the obvious skills and marketing experience to execute your plan. I believe you know your next steps so step out in faith and do not fear.

    It was a pleasure to find you today.

  6. I have to say, I LOVE this post! It made me think so much of myself and my first few posts. I too felt terrified. It was really why I started doing it; to face my fears! You might enjoy my first two posts: http://withanopenheart.org/2012/02/22/what-is-with-an-open-heart/
    And http://withanopenheart.org/2012/02/29/vulnerability-is-a-bitch-but-its-invaluable-to-living-an-authentic-life/

    The first step in making your dreams come true is really visualizing them. Best of look! I look forward to following your journey.


    P.S. I found your blog through Truth and Cake: )

    Thank you so

  7. I’ve been where you are. Those little voices chiming away in my head .. telling me I had made the wrong decision. All I can say is if you decorate even half as well as you write – you are going to be fine. There’s a Zen proverb that says: JUMP and the net will appear. Go girl!

  8. I think it’s awesome that you’re vocalizing your dreams and putting yourself out there! Getting from point A to point Z takes a lot of faith and usually involves a few missteps. But having a direction and believing in yourself provides the necessary fire to keep going. Your plan sounds fantastic and I have no doubt, if you follow all of your own great advice, that you’ll find yourself in that showroom, bringing beauty to other people’s lives in no time.

    • Rian, thank you so much for your encouragement and constant inspiration! I have no doubt that there will be more missteps and bumps along this road, but as long as I hold true to myself, failure is impossible. Thank you again for your support!

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